Thursday, December 26, 2013

Age

I am twenty-five years old. And now more than halfway through my twenty-fifth year, I still hesitate to think when people ask my age. Twenty-five doesn't seem right. It doesn't seem real. The word does not come to my lips naturally. I can't be twenty-five! I'm too immature, I drink, I stay out late, I make mistakes, I usually avoid adult conversations if I can.. etc. etc. This is not the behavior of a twenty-five year old.

Monday, December 23, 2013

I'll be home for Christmas...if only in my dreams.

During this time of giving and loving and counting your blessings, I feel the need to articulate how grateful I am. Christmas this year is different. Yes, I'm spending it away from my family, thousands of miles from the comfort of home. But I am not alone here. And these days I am just really happy. There is no better way to put it. I'm happy.

I don´t know what´s in store for me, for Nacho and I, in the next year or two. Sometimes that scares me, but most times I prefer it. The unpredictability of my life seems to fuel me. The blooming quality life seems to have, as though every experience and hurdle and bout of laughter is opening up my heart and head like a flower, blows me away. I feel so lucky. I am amazed at the ability I, and all people, have to learn and to grow, and at how much one can change in a lifetime, in a year, in a day. All my experiences and friendships have shaped me to be who I am today, and I know I have much more shaping to do and am happy for that. Never in my life have I felt so lucky to love and be loved by such a special person. I am grateful to have his love and the love of his family this holiday season. I am grateful for this adventure and the fearlessness I command in myself to follow my instincts. And I am so thankful for those who support me and believe in me back home.

So although I am far away from those reading, I hope this post brings me a little closer to home this Christmas. Loving and knowing people in more than one place is a blessing. Sending happiness, joy, love and hope, all of which have no boundaries, across the ocean to those I love. Merry Christmas.